airport’s story! hehe,,peace. .

August 3rd, 2008 by balieklluiver
cm pengen share ajaa,,
kmrn one of my bestfriend pgi ke luar negri..
dan gw nganter ke airport brg sm tmn gw yg notabene adalah "cowo yg paling deket sm sahabat gw selama bertahun2, sekitar 5 ato 6 ataun blkg ini lah".

cowo ini jg tmn gw dari bertaun2 yg lalu.
dan stlh skian lama gw bertemen sm dia, gw ga pernah ngeliat mukanya sesedih dan sepanik itu.
padahal, slama ini dia org yg cuek, dingin, dan kdg terlihat ga peduli.
kmrn gw tambah nyadar, kl sbenernya nih org sayaaaaaaangg bgt sm cwnya.
tp knp yaa slama bertaun2 ini, dia nyakitin cw ini trus. bahkan kdg nyia2in.
pdhl dia punya waktu banyaaaaakkk bgt buat brubah dan ga nyia2in cw ini.
dan kdg juga ngebohongin prasaannya.
pdhl dia tau, dia ga perlu lg nyari org lain kl udh brg sm cw ini (dan emg gw ga ngerti lg sm cw ini. gilaaa yaaa, gw ga pernah bisa nemuin satu hal pun yg kurang dan ga bisa gw trima dr dia! she almost perfect!)
smp kdg dibilang bego krn masih sgitu sayangnya sm cowo yg udh nyia2in dia. dan cowo itu pun dibilang bego krn udh MENYIA2KAN cw yg udah ngasi pengorbanan sgitu banyaknya buat dia.
dan kmrn gw bner2 ngeliat muka tmen gw ini sediiihh bgt, apalagi pas tau ternyata kita cuma bisa ktmu cw itu selama 5 menit, itu jg ga nymp klii.
pdhl dia udh ngebut2 buat nymp airport.
gilaaaa,,dia nyeselnya ky apaan tau..
gw bner2 bisa liat dr mukanya tmn gw itu.
dia sediiiihh bgt, tp dia jg ga tau hrs gmn,,
cm bisa diem, brusaha buat nyembunyiin prasaannya pdhl sbnernya dlm hatinya ancuuurr bgt (haha,,knal bgt sm sifat yg satu ini, mirip sifat siapa gituu..hehe,curcol!)
dan akhirnya dia ngaku k gw, kl dia bisa gila kl kehilangan cw ini.
yah, mdh2an dia bisa ngebuktiin ke cw ini dan ga melakukan kesalahan yg sama. semua berbalik 180 derajat! haha,
akhirnyaaaaa,,,smua gengsi itu hilang bgitu saja..

hahahaha,,knp yaa org slalu gitu?
kl orgnya udh ga ada buat dia ajaa,,br nyesel.
knp yaa yg namanya penyesalan slalu dtg terlambat?
emg sih penyesalan perlu ada, krn dgn adanya penyesalan, kita smua bljr dr kesalahan. dan pastinya berusaha buat memperbaikinya.
tp kl ternyata kita ga punya kesempatan buat memperbaiki kesalahan itu, gmn yaa? apalagi kl ternyata kita nyesel seumur hidup cm gr2 kesalahan yg sebenernya ga perlu kita lakuin itu? kesalahan yg ternyata bikin kita kehilangan org yg paling besar artinya buat kita?
huh,,brat amat yaaa..

yah, jd blajar sesuatu aja hari ini..
berusaha ikhlas dan ttp menyayangi walaupun org itu ga slalu ada disamping kita, merelakan ktika ada org lain yg mungkin bisa lebih baik dr kita,,
dan mencoba utk lebih mengerti org yg kita sayang walaupun butuh pengorbanan yg sangat lebih itu JAUH lebih baik, krn suatu saat nanti pasti ada hasilnya.

butuh hati yg lebih 1000x lebih lapang..
airmata yg berember2 (hahaha,)..
prasaan yg lebih ikhlas..
kesabaran tingkat PALING tinggi,
usaha berlipat2 yg lebiiiiihhh bgt dr biasanya.
sayang yg ga pernah ada abisnya,
maaf yg slalu ada ketika diminta,
pengertian yg amat sangat.
doa yg lebih tulus buat kebahagiannya..

emg sih, bukan dlm waktu yg singkat. butuh waktu yg sangaaaaattt lama buat liat hasilnya.
ada contoh konkritnya ko,, buktinya, sahabat gw aja bisa..biarpun butuh waktu yg lamaaaaa bgtt..
tp kl lo yakin, pasti yg lo korbanin ga akan sia2 ko.

mata dan hati gw smakin kebuka aja, untuk ga nyia2in org yg gw sayang..

Till they take my heart away..

April 18th, 2008 by balieklluiver

I look into your eyes, so far away
there’s trouble on your mind
you’re losing faith
hey now,let me hold you
it’ll be okay!
Coz i will love you
till they take my heart away..

remember when you called
and said goodbye
you’ve thought we’d lost it all
and so did i
even if i lost you
i would feel the same
coz i will love you
till they take my heart away

believe in me
i’m here to stay
i will love you
till they take my heart away

now we’re stronger than before
we’ve made it throught
i never felt more sure
because of you
hey now! Are you listening?
Can you hear me say?
“i will love you till they take my heart away..”

Till they take my heart away..

April 18th, 2008 by balieklluiver

I look into your eyes, so far away
there’s trouble on your mind
you’re losing faith
hey now,let me hold you
it’ll be okay!
Coz i will love you
till they take my heart away..

remember when you called
and said goodbye
you’ve thought we’d lost it all
and so did i
even if i lost you
i would feel the same
coz i will love you
till they take my heart away

believe in me
i’m here to stay
i will love you
till they take my heart away

now we’re stronger than before
we’ve made it throught
i never felt more sure
because of you
hey now! Are you listening?
Can you hear me say?
“i will love you till they take my heart away..”

28.02.08

February 28th, 2008 by balieklluiver

feel much better today..

ngerasa lebih tnang,lebih enak lg skrg.

hmmm..i wish i can be better in everything,,get wiser and wiser again..

‘aku cm mau jd org yg lebih baik lg buat kamu..jd org yg lebih ngertiin kamu lg..maaf kl kmrn2 aku jd org yg ga sabar, gampang marah,,maafin aku..

aku ga minta banyak ko..aku yakin kamu tau apa yg aku mau..’

13.2.08

February 13th, 2008 by balieklluiver

hahhaa,,bsk valentine yaaa?
ga penting juga yaaa,,scr kl punya waktu jg mendingan tidur dan mengerjakan tugas..

ga tau lg knp, lg ada yg pgn dcritain tp ga bisa blg jg..
aneh bgt yaaa?
hehehe,,mgkn itulah jeleknya gw.
too introvert,,
or maybe i just miss someone so bad..
and it makes me get bored with this situation.
maybe, if i can get what i expect, i will get better,,

and for now,
all i want to do is . . . .

nothing to say, just drop by and say..

February 10th, 2008 by balieklluiver

hmmm,,

nothing to say.

just wanna tell him, that i’m ok right now..

that i won’t be like the old days again..

hehehe,,

and also,,

i love him more today than yesterday!

hihihihi,,

hihihihi..

December 13th, 2007 by balieklluiver

den,, you were right when you said:
“why we always want what we knows we can’t get?
what we knows we shouldn’t have?
and the worst thing is, you must accept it!
you must accept, that you can’t have it in the end..
no matter how hard you gets it and how fun you think about it,,
you must accept that you have to loose it..”

i don’t know why i choose that way..
but, i just wanna say, that now i know how does it feel when you love someone so much,,
afraid to loose and wanna do everything only for that person..
yes i know, what do you feel when you crazy about her, when gita cried everyday, and when edo did everything for her.

hahaha,, if only he knows, that i never love someone that much.
and i never did something crazy like that,,
go to somewhere out there which is thousand miles from home, spend my midnight in the train, alone!!
only for see him…
hahaha..

now i know,,what people feel when they tell me their story.
and i won’t say “udh d, biasa aja kaliii!’ anymore..
hahaha..

thanks God,,for lettin’ me know how does it feel..
i love him!!

syenaaangg

November 11th, 2007 by balieklluiver

new life..

new story..

hahaha, ga nyangka akhirnya bisa punya pacar lg. setelah sekian lama ga pengen bgt punya pacar. cowo itu penghalang! gw slalu berpikir ky gitu.. huahahaha, parah bgt!

tp, kynya skarang gw mulai berpikir dan lebih tpatnya ngerasa kl ternyata sometimes we need someone to share, to cheer me up, to hug me when i’m down, and to stay beside me..

eh, ga taunya malah long distance.. jauh bgt lg!

hahaha, gpp..itu namanya menguji kesabaran dan kesetiaan.. it’s all about our commitment, right?

hehe,,skali2 bljr dewasa, ga menyakiti perasaan org lg boleh dong

hahaha..

yah, skrg gw mulai bljr aja kl ternyata, God doesn’t always give what we want. but, instead He gives us what we need…

dan gw ngerasa aja, stelah smua yg udah gw lewatin,,kegakelasan prasaan gw,kebingungan, kekosongan..

ada akhirnya juga..yah, walaupun ada masalah lain.but, i always believe..that everything always have the way out.

and now, i guess i’d fall for him!

curhat!

September 28th, 2007 by balieklluiver

wow..

it’s another year..i’ve got so many jobs, soo many responsibilities, less time to hang out and have some fun with my friends.

huhu, ko rasanya brat bgt yaaa?

tapi yasudahlah biarkan saja, mgkn emg ini yg gw mau jg kliii. sperti yg sudah sering dibilang oleh tman2, "kl ga ky gini, namanya bukan elo, stef!" jadi skrg gw sedang mencoba untuk menjalankan hidup gw yg rasanya cuma kuliah dan rapaaattt mulu.. huhu,,

hm, skrg baru krasa kosongnya.. trnyt kdg2 perlu juga yaa diperhatiin org lain.hehe,

huhu, i miss the good old days sooooo much ;(

just asking!

August 6th, 2007 by balieklluiver

hm,, what do you think about someone who doen’t appreciate for someone’s feeling and about a few years after that he or she realize that someone is the love of them life??